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          Well, here it goes. I have been on and off with this weight loss for sooo long. It's painful. Mentally AND Physically. I am a broken record when it comes to weight loss. I'll try almost anything. In fact, I have tried almost everything from: Weight watchers, Jenny Craig, Slim4life, HCG, Phentermine, Advocare 24 Day Challenge, Atkins, Juicing Diet.. you name it, I've tried it. In July of 2012, I had weight loss surgery, I thought this was going to solve ALL of my problems. EGH. WRONG. I didn't realize that it was a tool. I saw how successful one of my really good friends and co-workers were with the surgery, I thought, "Hey, I can do that. I won't put any weight back on, I won't go back to my old ways.". EGH. WRONG. My starting weight with the surgery was 317. Thats THREE HUNDRED SEVENTEEN POUNDS. Are you effing kidding me?? I knew how I let myself get that big, but WHY? Food has always been my comfort. I have been through some dark times, and food was my outlet. I would seriously rather be addicted to crack than to carbs... ANYWAYS, back to the fat, after the sugery I lost about 75-80 lbs. I was absolutely LOVING life, but most importantly I was LOVING MYSELF. I was so incredibly happy. Yes, I had more to go, but I was finally getting that confidence that I had lacked my whole life.


 After a few months of hitting a platuae, its almost like my mind gave up. That's one of my BIGGEST flaws. If I don't see progress, I shut down. I started to feel like I did at 317 lbs, and I just let it consume me. And now, I feel it even more. I feel it more and more every day. And if I don't stand up, I am going to let the old me completely take over. I can't and won't let that happen. I have come to terms that the past is the past, and that the surgery is no longer something that I can utilize. It sucks, and I hate it, but dwelling on it sure won't change things. I am starting this blog for so many reasons. I want to track my progress. I want to show, even if its just myself, that I CAN do this, on my own. Or, even if I get 1 or 2 followers, I will have that extra support.

11 comments:

  1. Hi! New Follower coming over from FatChicktoFitChicks blog! Girl I am right there with you! I lost 100+ lbs and I've gained some back..and starting to lose it again....story of my life!....it sucks and life can get in the way at times but you just have to keep looking ahead! So excited to see where your journey takes you!!! xoxo

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  2. It is very hard!! Food is so delicous.. But being fat is not! Thank you for following! I truly believe this time I GOT THIS! :)

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  3. Happy new follower! I lost about 50 lbs but gained 30 back and now working on losing the final 18! You can do it and the blog world will support you!

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    1. Thank you so much! That's why I got into blogging! I see so much support. It's helped so much already. Plus all eyes are on my now, gotta make y'all proud ;)

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  4. New follower! Found you through the grape vine! Which weight loss surgery did you have? I had lap band surgery done the end of October last year!

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    1. I had the Gastric Sleeve. I wish that I would have went with the LapBand. I think you made a great choice there. It has a little bit of a slower progress, but definitely a LONGER success!!! Good luck!!!

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    2. So far I'm enjoying it, but the past month or so have been really slow on losing weight, but I know I'll get there! Can't wait to read more of your journey!

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    3. It will get that way. Just keep pushing through, go get a fill! I promise you it will pick back up. The best advice I can give you is to NOT GIVE UP. Email if you ever need someone to talk to. kaelalh1232013@gmail.com

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  5. Good one you. Doesn't sound like it's been an easy journey but you're sticking to it. You have one more follower now and I can't wait to track your process.

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  6. Hi, new follower. I found you randomly on IG. I blog about my weight loss at http://assignmentamanda.blogspot.com/. Excited to get all caught up on your blog and see your continued progress.

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  7. Hi Kaela! My name is Cameron Von St. James and I had a quick question for you! I was wondering if you could email me at your earliest convenience at cvonstjames AT gmail DOT com :-) I greatly appreciate your time!!

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